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Name: Amy
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Birthday: 4/15/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: Doing at least one wild thing a week. Preferably on the weekend, though that doesn't always work. If it involves my skateboard, sweet. My crew, even cooler.
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  amyzone03
Member Since:
11/18/2004
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| Good grief I forgot I even had this account. Whoops. www.myspace.com/callmeblasphemy | | |
| "I feel scared." <BR> "Well that's what happens when you grow up. You have to handle scary situations." <BR> "Everyone's told me how strong and rational I am my hole life, and now that I actually need to be, it's to hard." <BR> "you're still a kid, you're only 19" <BR> "Most 19 year olds aren't dealing with these sorts of things." <BR> "Point is, not to let it scare you. Those people are always pessimistic and you've got to much going." <BR> "And a lot to lose." | | |
| Casey calls weekly to see if I'm single yet. A wee bit daunting. And the snow here is beautiful; the water looks so angry...*sighs* I'm ready to go back to school. Don't know about classes, but I'm ready to be back. | | |
| The holidays were great. I enjoyed the relaxation, the familial atmosphere, the long afternoons with books. Bit of a let down that Conor couldn't come visit, but I wasn't too surprised. New Year's was great. I went to see the girls off on their great adventures. Cait and I drove to Missoula to see Lynsey, and her friend from Israel was visiting. The trip involved to much smoking, high heels in snow, and nude hot springs adventures, but that's what it was all about. The send-off. Caitlin leaves for Egypt in a couple weeks. Lynz for Africa in a couple days. It will be so strange not to have them around. Not sure what my plans are now, I was all fixed for Greece, but mom and dad sat me down for the "talk." They aren't as thrilled as I am, so now I do not know if I am going or what. If I can't go to greece, I'm going to Ireland, assuming Continental doesn't go out of business in February and I have to drop out of school anyway. I feel strange. As if for the first time I'm having to be an adult. I've struggled with it. Barb said you don't really feel like an adult until your parents die, but I sense for me this is different. My parent's financial struggles have forced me to grow up quick and look at my priorities. Joe and Brandon and the whole Iraq thing have done that as well. And now, add to that my two best friends in the two most dangerous places in the world, and well, it's hard to fall asleep at night. And my poor mother. I finally realize the sacrifices my mother has made all these years. I'm not sure I agree with them, and that too is hard. And I have my show in February and my club, and 19 units. I'm in for quite a ride. I'll be curious to see how I hold on, and how I change to cope with it. | | |
| Finally talked to Conor.... twas very nice. So today I treated myself and slept in until it was past noon for the simple pleasure of dreaming. I only dream if I've slept for too long. Very interesting dreams that involved le Grand-Sud de la France, vampires, churches, a couple of random professors and the police. I'm tired of waiting for Christmas. It seems really unfair that it's on a Saturday. | | |
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